Saturday, September 24, 2005
Yesterday was quite happy... Thou tired but stil enjoy the nite lor.. mayb i like to b wif him ba.. Met his fren den go Pasir Panjang food centre for dinner den headed to Sentosa.. was at the southern part of Spore.. abit dark but quite nice lor.. hehe.. Sentosa changed quite alot cos i very very long nv go le.. but i wana try the Carlsberg Sky Tower leh.. :(
I'm oso glad to noe tat cousin isn't changing her job le.. so mi & her r stil col.. yeah!! can go office 2gether & if i got no lunch partner i can find her.. so gd lor..
Slp for 5 hrs only but now abit tired lor. sld i slp? or watch vcd? anyway i'm too lazy to upload & compile Shermine's latest photos.. Went to c her on wed & thur.. she can crawl & sit by herself le.. steady steady, like 'bu dao weng'..
Went polyclinic at 7+ to get appt to c the specialist.. on 12/10 morning @ SGH.. hav to take unpaid leave liao lor.. sian.. so troublesome.
mi now very angry wif smone.. super big mouth lor.. & he's my bro.. wana scold him lata le.. wana get gd tins fr my mum is it.. so tel her watever abt mi despite mi warning him lor.. asshole.. but wat she say is repeat de lah.. noe wat she'l say to mi lor but wil i care? previous 1 i bo chup liao but its my own prob to end up in tis stage lah.. but current 1 i tin sldn't b a prob ba.. but stil smtimes i'l tin is he my future 1? cos the way he treats mi smtimes abit diff lor.. duno y i'l feel uncomfortable & wil tin alot de lor.. cos i dun wan history to repeat itself.. i'l try nt to let it repeat..
but 1 gd news is tat next yr got another angel coming to my hse le.. haha :D cos cousin's wife is expecting le.. jus 1 mth only lah.. can smone giv birth to a piggy in 2007? hehe ;p
10:41 AM
Thursday, September 22, 2005
Haiz.. duno y last nite til now my mood nt very gd lor.. duno wats wrong. but i jus feel bad.. i noe its my own prob.. i wun make my prob ur prob. saying out my feeling is useless. so i tin i wun say anymore le.. sldn't hav bcome like tis lor.. cos now i'm suppose to find smone who love mi more den i love him. even if i miss him alot, i oso cant say out.. nt to let him noe lor. at least my life is beta..
7:48 PM
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
almost a wk din update le..
now cant really rem wat tins i did last wk liao.. but i noe i spent my time happily.. wif him.
oh yah.. fri aft work went bugis to shop.. cos M Industries is having sales so went down & bought 2 tops & a skirt. den went Precious Thots to get my Precious Moments mug & flask. Did went Seiyu to chat wif his sis lor.. den went back. Late nite went out for dinner & movie.. watched the Nightwatch but i fell aslp lor.. super sian dun really understand tat show. Sat helped him to clean his room (din really do much lah ;p) den at nite stil the same, went Jurong wif him cos he's having his ice hockey training every sat. Aft tat al of us went to eat frog leg porridge.. the food wich i had been craving for but din have the chance to eat lor. cos Qingfa dun like, so i hav to go wif his decision lor. but at least now i ate it le.. really very happy lor.. so delicious. Den sun afternoon, tied my hair at hm & went over to his place. cos we r goin for his buddy's sis wedding dinner @ Plaza hotel.. my old workplace.. to my surprise, i stil saw familiar faces lor.. been 6 yrs liao leh.. dey stil no change lor.. but i changed le. Saw Roy (went back to work as AM), thomas, Jacky, Yilong & Peitong. Dey stil rem mi lor.. so got tis opportunity to tok to dem but i hope i din make mi feel weird.
but al i can say is the service there is worse den b4. Complained but new ppl ned time to train.. got attitude prob oso leh.. kaoz...
Mon started working at new office le.. morning was busy unpacking everytin lor. den was quite free, cos no printer so nth much we can do. & the server is quite unstable yet. & oso the stupid air-con was super cold lor.. i was like working in the freezer. but 2day the temperature was beta den ytd, & got some work to do le.. printer oso ready by end of the day. so tml i can do al my work liao. travelling time shorten. Gd gd..
so sad tat i cant go bangkok tour wif my bro & meiyun le.. cos he only tin of his wife lor.. bcos she starting her attachment in Dec & cant take any leave, so dey r goin BKK in Nov. but i cant go bcos i'm stil under probation & dun wish to take unpaid leave lor cos it wil affect my annual appraisal.. so let dem go but next wk he mus go wif mi again.. but tis morning cousin say next yr she's planning to go HK.. bringin Shermine there lor.. so i'm lookin forward to tat oso..
saw photos taken of Shermine.. she's so cute. 6+ mth old le, now she noe how to sit by herself & can crawl liao.. tml i mus go find her. heard tat sat she went downstairs wif the crowd walking to celebrate Lantern festival.. & she's holding her lantern tightly lor.. too bad din take photo on tat nite.. cant c how excited she is..
i noe i'm living happily everyday.. cos got someone who cares alot for mi. i really appreciate. & i noe i'm living happier w/o him. cos i'm not having any guys other den him. i dun flirt ard.
but to Mr Chia, al i can say is u r stil cheating on her lor. does she noe abt Ayaka? guess u wun let her noe ba.. or jus say u 2 r normal frens. but wat if she saw the email tat she sent u.. can she take it?
10:01 PM
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Put tis photo in my office pc as wallpaper..
But my 'shi fu' asked mi dun put it.. cos many ppl went to ask her m i married.. haha.. funny rite? but i jus wana put my 2 loving sweetheart on the screen.. so adorable.. make mi smile whenever i c dem.
Oh yah.. 2day is my 2 frens bday.. mus sms dem.. =)
Lata goin for my doc appt again, cos the lab result is out.. duno wats the outcome leh.. i'm so afraid now.. wana put a . for al tis leh..
6:12 AM
Sunday, September 11, 2005
Was typing a long post for last wk.. but it was destroyed by my angel..
this is wat he typed:
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he was enjoying himself lor.. looks so pro for a 4yrs old kid. thou he dun really noe wat he's typing lah but he noe how to click submit, ok.. haha
so no choice, i've to elaborate on wat i wana say lor..
but i'm feeling very happy now.. cos i noe i'l live happily even w/o him. & i tins tat he stil nt happy wif wat he hav now lor. i hav ppl who cares & love mi.. but smtimes i'l wonder how is he doing now...
last sat alot of tins occupied my mind for tat hr or more.. bcos of him & tat gal lor.. cant cal her a bitch le cos she mean nth to mi now.. cos i kept msgin him askin him to trf $ but he's like reluctant to do so.. in the end she saw my msg to him & her qns is y i'm askin him for $.. & of cos tis guy told her tat i wana borrow $ fr him lor.. so beforehand, he called mi, wan mi to help him tel lies to her lor. i duno sld i help him.. shortly, she msg mi le but i stil cldn't reply her as i stil duno sld i tel her the truth or lie lor.. den finally i noe wat to say to her le..
will u believe wat i say? i did told u the truth b4 but u chose to listen to his lies. believe in wat u tin. trust him since he told u le. wat for wana ask mi?
den when i sent out tat msg, he called mi & pass the fone to her. den i tok to her lor.. jus like wat i've typed.. duno y she told mi last time she did wana cal mi de but in the end din lah.. now den say al tis got wat use liao ah? but anyway i din really mention tat he owe mi $ lor.. jus say tat i every mth wil borrow $ fr him lor.. starting she's blurred & ask y i mus do tis lor.. but soon she understand wat i mean. i even warned her tat he din get it jus fr mi lor. but luckily she's stil nt his victim yet. but i tin sooner or later de lor. gd luck to u..
aft hanging up the fone, i felt troubled.. i dun wish to care so much liao.. even thou wed he told mi he had nth to do wif her anymore.. but 3 days lata stil wan mi to help him lie to her. when i asked him, he say patched back le. i got no reaction when i hear tat lor. but if can i hope dey wun b 2gether lah.. (bad rite? haha..) is it bcos he's lonely tats y tat day he said he wana hug mi? but sorry, i wun let him do anytin to harm mi again lor.. cos i'm living happily now.
lata he called back again wana clarify wif mi tat i've taken back all my tins on wed.. i tin he asked jus to let her hear it fr my mouth lor.. stupid mi.. sld hav blurted out tat he wana hug mi on tat day mah.. make dem quarrel.. haha... but i told him, wah she like tat oso wana in-charge ah? so wat if my tins r stil there? i stil got the pass to go up lor.. he got no power to stop mi.. cos i'm not goin to find him de mah.. but if nth much i oso dun wana go up lah..
ok tats so much i hav to say abt him.. & i hope i wun b involve in their conversation or quarrels anymore.. leave mi alone.. thou i stil wil care for u..
Sat nite bro din bring Enen go Taka watch the lion dance comp.. too bad as its the last day of comp lor.. dey brought him to Chinese Garden instead.. but he oso enjoyed himself alot lor.. cos got the dragon for him to play.. he loved it.
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I din even noe he came over to stay at my hse until morning my bro told mi.. was so happy to hear tat lor.. if i noe i wil b back hm early lor but dun tin i can make it cos i'm at jurong tat nite.. so sun played wif him at hm.. so fun lor..
Pic 3 Little Beckham Bathing
so happy..
Loved to b wif Enen & Shermine.. cos dey r my 'kai xin guo' lor.. so the times wif dem r the happiest 1.. but wif frens i oso happy.
All the best to u.. b matured, tin of ur future cos only u can help urself..
& I'll live happily w/o u. cos i felt very fortunate now..
11:50 AM
Saturday, September 10, 2005
Tis wk was so busy.. Mama was scolding mi everyday cos i'm nt goin back for dinner.
Wed, at work wasn't quite gd for mi.. cos my 'shi fu' was in super bad mood aft their 2hrs of meeting.. & so i wan kena by her lor.. Scared mi.. i dun dare to provoke or ask her any qns at tat time.. so very moody oso.. but aft lunch everytin was back to normal.. so gd..
Tat nite i went over to his place. to take back all my tins.. den i noe how many tins i had at his place lor.. like moving hse. Noe he wun b at hm cos hav to work late, but stil i went lah. anyway makes no diff if he's at hm or not. but when i almost finish packing, he came back. did tok in the room.. & he even wana hug mi.. but i rejected him. wat he treat mi as? when he's lonely den find mi lah.. den when i ask him to go hug tat bitch, he told mi dey r nth de.. but as if i'l believe his words lor.. if nth, y wil all tis happen? den he say now alr got nth to do wif her le.. tis ans i nt too sure lah. but i choose nt to trust him lor. if really dey r separated, of cos i'l b happy. but anyway i'l not let him hug mi de. cos we r frens only.. i care for u but u cnt take advantage of mi oso.
Den thur aft work, went down to Taka.. cos its was his competition nite.. happy to c him.. cos i loved to c him participating, looking so serious. but sad to say, dey came in 5th position. Stupid judges.. duno how to interprete their scene de lor.. but tat nite he got tok a few sentences wif mi lah.. nt so bad..
den last nite, aft work went for outing.. by rite sld hav 11 or more ppl de.. in the end only left 8. sld i b angry wif the rest who promise but din appear? i'm really angry lor. alr make advance booking since aug liao. so by den al sld make themselves available on tis date mah. so disappointed.. & i'm not goin to organise any outing le.. wasting my sms-es but w/o dem, we stil enjoyed ourselves happily.. having dinner at Pizza Hut den go Partyworld.. but i left early to catch a midnight show.. den ying & doreen oso left aft mi cos dey hav to go back to the west by demselves.. so the VIP room left mf, weiyong, jh, deen & brian.. singing till 2am. quite sad when i hav to leave early.. but bo bian cos i promise someone le. i'l keep my words.. n like those ppl..
duno sld i say anot.. cos i duno is tis true.. msg her le, she's the 1st to reply mi saying she cant make it at al lor.. den y my guy fren told mi, she told him tat i din asked her out.. tat time i listen le i really very angry lor. i duno who's saying the truth lah.. but forget it.. anyway i'm nt goin to organise anymore outing for dem le.. have to contact 9 ppl & hope everyone can make it cos very long din meet up liao. Stil got ppl went out to buy mooncake. bcos of the promotion ending, she dun wana meet up lor.. i tin u'l come cos u promise mi le.. but when i told the rest, dey r very cfm tat u wun come de lor.. & yes dey r rite.. but y m i so stupid to believe tat i'l c u? den last min hav to work ot is bo bian de lah.. tat i can understand..
last nite reach hm ard 3+, slp at 4am but wake up at 9am.. stil quite tired but jus cant slp anymore.. mayb afternoon den take a nap ba. else 2nite sure collapse.. at nite goin out til quite late again.. but tml wil b at hm resting.. cos heard news tat mon onwards, i'm fully in charge of the 3 big customers profile le.. & my 'shi fu' can only assist mi in some ways cos her workload oso increased..
anyone looking for jobs? Epson hav a job opening as Marketing Executive.. for more info & go to their website & c.. Oh yah.. tat day went to the new office to hav a look le.. thou the desks stil nt up yet, the place look small lor.. imagine all the desks r ready, dun tin wil av much space to walk liao.. combining Millenia Tower (2 floors) + Haw Par Cenre (1 floor) + service centre = 1 floor.. sian.. pantry, printing room, toilet al so far.. mus walk a distance.. 19th i'll b there working le..
10:05 AM
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is two way street.
You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals. Look for someone complimentary, not supplementary.
Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.
Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.
7:16 PM
Sunday, September 04, 2005
Feeling tired now but i couldn't get to slp leh.. cant slp too late anymore even on wkends..
Past few days, i spent happily lor.. meet up wif stacey & brian for lunch, went comex walked & find Ting, busy burning 'Da Chang Jin', going out.. nt bad at least i'm dun feel bored anymore..
Mayb i've stopped missing him le. left only memories. but i stil care so much for him tat i did smth wich i sldn't lor. i jus cant bear to c him like tis.. By rite 2day i'm meetin him to take $ de.. but i nt free so get him to trf but until now he stil haven lor. so next mth onwards i tin i beta take fr him personally, else he'l act blur lor.
4 more days.. & i'm able to c him again.. i hope to c their best performance, no mistakes make, get the award.. tis is wat i wish to c on tat day lor.. Jia You!! Jia You!! Jia You!!
Wah i super long din take bus to Orchard liao.. tat day went & the road changed le.. Cos now i go there is by train le.. no chance taking bus down town.
Next mon-wed quite free lor.. but thur aft work goin down Taka, fri schedule full le, super busy ah.. jus afraid tat i cant stay out so late cos i sure feel tired & slpy de as i wun b having enuf slp lor. how abt sat? i tin tat day my schedule is stil empty leh.
Oh yah.. HH wil b back fr Korea 2nite.. Bro back fr Japan yesterday.. so gd.. i wan go overseas but cnt leh.
I miss Enen & Shermine.. Yesterday went to play wif her.. next wk wil b 6 mths old le.. so fast.. getting smarter lor.. she was playing happily in her playpen.. tossing here & there, busy sucking her thumb or toe, shaking her buttock, talkin her own language.. so cute.. din hav nice photo to upload cos everytime i go my hp low batt so cant take lor.. :(
now my mind is quite confusing leh.. i duno wat i sld do.. abit lost.. but i tin i cant b a gd gf. i dun wana hurt anyone & so dun wish to get hurt anymore. i noe myself.. i get jealous easily, wan many tins to go in my way, demand alot.. al tis r bad lor.. too much le.. who can stand mi leh? wif tis attitude can the relationship b long term?
8:49 AM
Yesterday was quite happy... Thou tired but stil enjoy the nite lor.. mayb i like to b wif him ba.. Met his fren den go Pasir Panjang food centre for dinner den headed to Sentosa.. was at the southern part of Spore.. abit dark but quite nice lor.. hehe.. Sentosa changed quite alot cos i very very long nv go le.. but i wana try the Carlsberg Sky Tower leh.. :(
I'm oso glad to noe tat cousin isn't changing her job le.. so mi & her r stil col.. yeah!! can go office 2gether & if i got no lunch partner i can find her.. so gd lor..
Slp for 5 hrs only but now abit tired lor. sld i slp? or watch vcd? anyway i'm too lazy to upload & compile Shermine's latest photos.. Went to c her on wed & thur.. she can crawl & sit by herself le.. steady steady, like 'bu dao weng'..
Went polyclinic at 7+ to get appt to c the specialist.. on 12/10 morning @ SGH.. hav to take unpaid leave liao lor.. sian.. so troublesome.
mi now very angry wif smone.. super big mouth lor.. & he's my bro.. wana scold him lata le.. wana get gd tins fr my mum is it.. so tel her watever abt mi despite mi warning him lor.. asshole.. but wat she say is repeat de lah.. noe wat she'l say to mi lor but wil i care? previous 1 i bo chup liao but its my own prob to end up in tis stage lah.. but current 1 i tin sldn't b a prob ba.. but stil smtimes i'l tin is he my future 1? cos the way he treats mi smtimes abit diff lor.. duno y i'l feel uncomfortable & wil tin alot de lor.. cos i dun wan history to repeat itself.. i'l try nt to let it repeat..
but 1 gd news is tat next yr got another angel coming to my hse le.. haha :D cos cousin's wife is expecting le.. jus 1 mth only lah.. can smone giv birth to a piggy in 2007? hehe ;p
10:41 AM
Thursday, September 22, 2005
Haiz.. duno y last nite til now my mood nt very gd lor.. duno wats wrong. but i jus feel bad.. i noe its my own prob.. i wun make my prob ur prob. saying out my feeling is useless. so i tin i wun say anymore le.. sldn't hav bcome like tis lor.. cos now i'm suppose to find smone who love mi more den i love him. even if i miss him alot, i oso cant say out.. nt to let him noe lor. at least my life is beta..
7:48 PM
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
almost a wk din update le..
now cant really rem wat tins i did last wk liao.. but i noe i spent my time happily.. wif him.
oh yah.. fri aft work went bugis to shop.. cos M Industries is having sales so went down & bought 2 tops & a skirt. den went Precious Thots to get my Precious Moments mug & flask. Did went Seiyu to chat wif his sis lor.. den went back. Late nite went out for dinner & movie.. watched the Nightwatch but i fell aslp lor.. super sian dun really understand tat show. Sat helped him to clean his room (din really do much lah ;p) den at nite stil the same, went Jurong wif him cos he's having his ice hockey training every sat. Aft tat al of us went to eat frog leg porridge.. the food wich i had been craving for but din have the chance to eat lor. cos Qingfa dun like, so i hav to go wif his decision lor. but at least now i ate it le.. really very happy lor.. so delicious. Den sun afternoon, tied my hair at hm & went over to his place. cos we r goin for his buddy's sis wedding dinner @ Plaza hotel.. my old workplace.. to my surprise, i stil saw familiar faces lor.. been 6 yrs liao leh.. dey stil no change lor.. but i changed le. Saw Roy (went back to work as AM), thomas, Jacky, Yilong & Peitong. Dey stil rem mi lor.. so got tis opportunity to tok to dem but i hope i din make mi feel weird.
but al i can say is the service there is worse den b4. Complained but new ppl ned time to train.. got attitude prob oso leh.. kaoz...
Mon started working at new office le.. morning was busy unpacking everytin lor. den was quite free, cos no printer so nth much we can do. & the server is quite unstable yet. & oso the stupid air-con was super cold lor.. i was like working in the freezer. but 2day the temperature was beta den ytd, & got some work to do le.. printer oso ready by end of the day. so tml i can do al my work liao. travelling time shorten. Gd gd..
so sad tat i cant go bangkok tour wif my bro & meiyun le.. cos he only tin of his wife lor.. bcos she starting her attachment in Dec & cant take any leave, so dey r goin BKK in Nov. but i cant go bcos i'm stil under probation & dun wish to take unpaid leave lor cos it wil affect my annual appraisal.. so let dem go but next wk he mus go wif mi again.. but tis morning cousin say next yr she's planning to go HK.. bringin Shermine there lor.. so i'm lookin forward to tat oso..
saw photos taken of Shermine.. she's so cute. 6+ mth old le, now she noe how to sit by herself & can crawl liao.. tml i mus go find her. heard tat sat she went downstairs wif the crowd walking to celebrate Lantern festival.. & she's holding her lantern tightly lor.. too bad din take photo on tat nite.. cant c how excited she is..
i noe i'm living happily everyday.. cos got someone who cares alot for mi. i really appreciate. & i noe i'm living happier w/o him. cos i'm not having any guys other den him. i dun flirt ard.
but to Mr Chia, al i can say is u r stil cheating on her lor. does she noe abt Ayaka? guess u wun let her noe ba.. or jus say u 2 r normal frens. but wat if she saw the email tat she sent u.. can she take it?
10:01 PM
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Put tis photo in my office pc as wallpaper..
But my 'shi fu' asked mi dun put it.. cos many ppl went to ask her m i married.. haha.. funny rite? but i jus wana put my 2 loving sweetheart on the screen.. so adorable.. make mi smile whenever i c dem.
Oh yah.. 2day is my 2 frens bday.. mus sms dem.. =)
Lata goin for my doc appt again, cos the lab result is out.. duno wats the outcome leh.. i'm so afraid now.. wana put a . for al tis leh..
6:12 AM
Sunday, September 11, 2005
Was typing a long post for last wk.. but it was destroyed by my angel..
this is wat he typed:
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he was enjoying himself lor.. looks so pro for a 4yrs old kid. thou he dun really noe wat he's typing lah but he noe how to click submit, ok.. haha
so no choice, i've to elaborate on wat i wana say lor..
but i'm feeling very happy now.. cos i noe i'l live happily even w/o him. & i tins tat he stil nt happy wif wat he hav now lor. i hav ppl who cares & love mi.. but smtimes i'l wonder how is he doing now...
last sat alot of tins occupied my mind for tat hr or more.. bcos of him & tat gal lor.. cant cal her a bitch le cos she mean nth to mi now.. cos i kept msgin him askin him to trf $ but he's like reluctant to do so.. in the end she saw my msg to him & her qns is y i'm askin him for $.. & of cos tis guy told her tat i wana borrow $ fr him lor.. so beforehand, he called mi, wan mi to help him tel lies to her lor. i duno sld i help him.. shortly, she msg mi le but i stil cldn't reply her as i stil duno sld i tel her the truth or lie lor.. den finally i noe wat to say to her le..
will u believe wat i say? i did told u the truth b4 but u chose to listen to his lies. believe in wat u tin. trust him since he told u le. wat for wana ask mi?
den when i sent out tat msg, he called mi & pass the fone to her. den i tok to her lor.. jus like wat i've typed.. duno y she told mi last time she did wana cal mi de but in the end din lah.. now den say al tis got wat use liao ah? but anyway i din really mention tat he owe mi $ lor.. jus say tat i every mth wil borrow $ fr him lor.. starting she's blurred & ask y i mus do tis lor.. but soon she understand wat i mean. i even warned her tat he din get it jus fr mi lor. but luckily she's stil nt his victim yet. but i tin sooner or later de lor. gd luck to u..
aft hanging up the fone, i felt troubled.. i dun wish to care so much liao.. even thou wed he told mi he had nth to do wif her anymore.. but 3 days lata stil wan mi to help him lie to her. when i asked him, he say patched back le. i got no reaction when i hear tat lor. but if can i hope dey wun b 2gether lah.. (bad rite? haha..) is it bcos he's lonely tats y tat day he said he wana hug mi? but sorry, i wun let him do anytin to harm mi again lor.. cos i'm living happily now.
lata he called back again wana clarify wif mi tat i've taken back all my tins on wed.. i tin he asked jus to let her hear it fr my mouth lor.. stupid mi.. sld hav blurted out tat he wana hug mi on tat day mah.. make dem quarrel.. haha... but i told him, wah she like tat oso wana in-charge ah? so wat if my tins r stil there? i stil got the pass to go up lor.. he got no power to stop mi.. cos i'm not goin to find him de mah.. but if nth much i oso dun wana go up lah..
ok tats so much i hav to say abt him.. & i hope i wun b involve in their conversation or quarrels anymore.. leave mi alone.. thou i stil wil care for u..
Sat nite bro din bring Enen go Taka watch the lion dance comp.. too bad as its the last day of comp lor.. dey brought him to Chinese Garden instead.. but he oso enjoyed himself alot lor.. cos got the dragon for him to play.. he loved it.
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I din even noe he came over to stay at my hse until morning my bro told mi.. was so happy to hear tat lor.. if i noe i wil b back hm early lor but dun tin i can make it cos i'm at jurong tat nite.. so sun played wif him at hm.. so fun lor..
Pic 3 Little Beckham Bathing
so happy..
Loved to b wif Enen & Shermine.. cos dey r my 'kai xin guo' lor.. so the times wif dem r the happiest 1.. but wif frens i oso happy.
All the best to u.. b matured, tin of ur future cos only u can help urself..
& I'll live happily w/o u. cos i felt very fortunate now..
11:50 AM
Saturday, September 10, 2005
Tis wk was so busy.. Mama was scolding mi everyday cos i'm nt goin back for dinner.
Wed, at work wasn't quite gd for mi.. cos my 'shi fu' was in super bad mood aft their 2hrs of meeting.. & so i wan kena by her lor.. Scared mi.. i dun dare to provoke or ask her any qns at tat time.. so very moody oso.. but aft lunch everytin was back to normal.. so gd..
Tat nite i went over to his place. to take back all my tins.. den i noe how many tins i had at his place lor.. like moving hse. Noe he wun b at hm cos hav to work late, but stil i went lah. anyway makes no diff if he's at hm or not. but when i almost finish packing, he came back. did tok in the room.. & he even wana hug mi.. but i rejected him. wat he treat mi as? when he's lonely den find mi lah.. den when i ask him to go hug tat bitch, he told mi dey r nth de.. but as if i'l believe his words lor.. if nth, y wil all tis happen? den he say now alr got nth to do wif her le.. tis ans i nt too sure lah. but i choose nt to trust him lor. if really dey r separated, of cos i'l b happy. but anyway i'l not let him hug mi de. cos we r frens only.. i care for u but u cnt take advantage of mi oso.
Den thur aft work, went down to Taka.. cos its was his competition nite.. happy to c him.. cos i loved to c him participating, looking so serious. but sad to say, dey came in 5th position. Stupid judges.. duno how to interprete their scene de lor.. but tat nite he got tok a few sentences wif mi lah.. nt so bad..
den last nite, aft work went for outing.. by rite sld hav 11 or more ppl de.. in the end only left 8. sld i b angry wif the rest who promise but din appear? i'm really angry lor. alr make advance booking since aug liao. so by den al sld make themselves available on tis date mah. so disappointed.. & i'm not goin to organise any outing le.. wasting my sms-es but w/o dem, we stil enjoyed ourselves happily.. having dinner at Pizza Hut den go Partyworld.. but i left early to catch a midnight show.. den ying & doreen oso left aft mi cos dey hav to go back to the west by demselves.. so the VIP room left mf, weiyong, jh, deen & brian.. singing till 2am. quite sad when i hav to leave early.. but bo bian cos i promise someone le. i'l keep my words.. n like those ppl..
duno sld i say anot.. cos i duno is tis true.. msg her le, she's the 1st to reply mi saying she cant make it at al lor.. den y my guy fren told mi, she told him tat i din asked her out.. tat time i listen le i really very angry lor. i duno who's saying the truth lah.. but forget it.. anyway i'm nt goin to organise anymore outing for dem le.. have to contact 9 ppl & hope everyone can make it cos very long din meet up liao. Stil got ppl went out to buy mooncake. bcos of the promotion ending, she dun wana meet up lor.. i tin u'l come cos u promise mi le.. but when i told the rest, dey r very cfm tat u wun come de lor.. & yes dey r rite.. but y m i so stupid to believe tat i'l c u? den last min hav to work ot is bo bian de lah.. tat i can understand..
last nite reach hm ard 3+, slp at 4am but wake up at 9am.. stil quite tired but jus cant slp anymore.. mayb afternoon den take a nap ba. else 2nite sure collapse.. at nite goin out til quite late again.. but tml wil b at hm resting.. cos heard news tat mon onwards, i'm fully in charge of the 3 big customers profile le.. & my 'shi fu' can only assist mi in some ways cos her workload oso increased..
anyone looking for jobs? Epson hav a job opening as Marketing Executive.. for more info & go to their website & c.. Oh yah.. tat day went to the new office to hav a look le.. thou the desks stil nt up yet, the place look small lor.. imagine all the desks r ready, dun tin wil av much space to walk liao.. combining Millenia Tower (2 floors) + Haw Par Cenre (1 floor) + service centre = 1 floor.. sian.. pantry, printing room, toilet al so far.. mus walk a distance.. 19th i'll b there working le..
10:05 AM
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is two way street.
You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals. Look for someone complimentary, not supplementary.
Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.
Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.
7:16 PM
Sunday, September 04, 2005
Feeling tired now but i couldn't get to slp leh.. cant slp too late anymore even on wkends..
Past few days, i spent happily lor.. meet up wif stacey & brian for lunch, went comex walked & find Ting, busy burning 'Da Chang Jin', going out.. nt bad at least i'm dun feel bored anymore..
Mayb i've stopped missing him le. left only memories. but i stil care so much for him tat i did smth wich i sldn't lor. i jus cant bear to c him like tis.. By rite 2day i'm meetin him to take $ de.. but i nt free so get him to trf but until now he stil haven lor. so next mth onwards i tin i beta take fr him personally, else he'l act blur lor.
4 more days.. & i'm able to c him again.. i hope to c their best performance, no mistakes make, get the award.. tis is wat i wish to c on tat day lor.. Jia You!! Jia You!! Jia You!!
Wah i super long din take bus to Orchard liao.. tat day went & the road changed le.. Cos now i go there is by train le.. no chance taking bus down town.
Next mon-wed quite free lor.. but thur aft work goin down Taka, fri schedule full le, super busy ah.. jus afraid tat i cant stay out so late cos i sure feel tired & slpy de as i wun b having enuf slp lor. how abt sat? i tin tat day my schedule is stil empty leh.
Oh yah.. HH wil b back fr Korea 2nite.. Bro back fr Japan yesterday.. so gd.. i wan go overseas but cnt leh.
I miss Enen & Shermine.. Yesterday went to play wif her.. next wk wil b 6 mths old le.. so fast.. getting smarter lor.. she was playing happily in her playpen.. tossing here & there, busy sucking her thumb or toe, shaking her buttock, talkin her own language.. so cute.. din hav nice photo to upload cos everytime i go my hp low batt so cant take lor.. :(
now my mind is quite confusing leh.. i duno wat i sld do.. abit lost.. but i tin i cant b a gd gf. i dun wana hurt anyone & so dun wish to get hurt anymore. i noe myself.. i get jealous easily, wan many tins to go in my way, demand alot.. al tis r bad lor.. too much le.. who can stand mi leh? wif tis attitude can the relationship b long term?
8:49 AM