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a b o u t . m e

Named Gilliam Ang
Born in 16 Nov 1983.
Regional Sales Coordinator in Epson.
Student of SIM - RMIT University.
Hope my wishes will come true soon.

w a n t e d

* A caring, loving HIM
* Save lots of $$$
* Holiday Getaway
* Get married on 09/09/09 or 20/09/2009, possible?
* w@ns to |ivE h@pPi|y eVer aFteR
* Coach Sling bag
* Burberry Blue Label Bag
* Ipod Nano
* LV wallet
*~ HaVe a m3mOr@b|e, uNfOrGetTab|e bDaY

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Sunday, August 29, 2004


ok uploaded Sammi's concert photos in my Yahoo! photos.. go n take a look.. some r very nice... esp the Hello Kitty using 7000 roses to set up leh.. so nice n cute.. n tat gown she's wearing oso very beautiful.. everytin al nice.. haha

Sammi concert 2004 photos


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4:33 PM



Saturday, August 28, 2004


haiz now so tired n slpy... 2day is my 1st day of work.. last nite aft the concert quickly walk to kallang mrt there to get a cab home.. thou stil got bus lah but i cant take lor if nt i reach hm wil b damn late le.. den bo bian mus take a cab hm but i got no cash wif mi n there's no atm machine... i use up al our cash to buy sammi cd le.. got free poster leh of cos i'l buy lah.. haha.. den ask my bro to wait for mi n bring $ down when i reaching.. haiz.. y mus i rush like siao.. if tat idiot allow mi to go stay overnight den wun got tis situation le.. n duno y tat job mus start work 2day.. mon cnt meh? but nvm lor stil mus go to learn n earn $$$.

2day morning wake up at 6.25am.. like very scared i slp overshot in the middle of the nite keep wake up, 3+ n 5am... den wake up le go bath n get myself prepared... duno is it bcos i too scare or wat leh.. my stomach is giving mi prob n my legs got no strength ah.. haha... 7.30 went out.. cos taking a bus go but duno how long is the journey so went out early lor so tat i wun b late for my 1st day of work.. but who noes, no traffic jams on sat everytin so smooth n i reach at 8.30.. stil got time to stroll to the guan ying miao pray den walk to the office no one there yet.. so i sit outside the lift until 9 den the door is open... the operation manager brief mi on the co hierarchy n my job scope den introduce mi to al the staff there.. oh shit i only rem some ppl.. merely those i tok to n interact more de.. the others listen le den forget.. haha.. 2day c the logistics gal doin the SO n PO tins den i got to learn dem n mon i wil get the chance to handle some lor.. suppose to knock off at 12.30 de but do tins until 1 den leave... when i leave alot of the staff stil busy working n some wil go down to the comex show aft work... heng i no ned to go ah.. but mayb in future if i'm more familiarise liao i mite ned to go down to the pc show n help dem do invoicing... work there beta nt wear skirt.. so al my skirt like wasted liao leh.. cos i need to carry the goods, squat down mah so wear skirt inconvenient.. so mayb i wear jeans more often. hope can lah cos the HR gal told mi wear pants leh... jeans can? cnt wear high heels oso leh oso bu fang bian lor... so 2day i wear my sports shoe go.. OH NO.. buay tahan ah nv wear tat kind of shoes for so long n i nt goin to get used to it lor.. i prefer sandals wif low heels de.. mayb tml go lavender ask tat idiot pei mi go vnc, urs or any other shop lah search for a comfortable shoe.. n oso get more polo tee to wear.. its like workin like a store assistant mus move goods de lor.. nt office wear..

ok 2day very tired le... but afternoon i got go lavender take a nap leh stil so slpy.. haiz a real pig ah.. oh my god!! tml is sun le so fast.. mon mus go work le.. :( y so fast de.. can i hav 5 day work or less? tml free den upload sammi concert photos... so happy.. tml shall tok more on the concert.. haha :D


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10:21 PM



Friday, August 27, 2004


HOHOHO!!! waited for 2 yrs n 2day is the day.. 9 hrs more to go.. haha :D wil take many many photos but duno quality gd anot.. cos i sit at block A32 row 9 seat 8/9 leh.. tats the best seats given to mi when i was book online.. mastercard priority stil sit so far..

tml wil b my 1st day of work.. n i've ask le.. i wil get $1400 as request.. bo bian ah.. last time send resume put 1400 but now i cant increase le.. :( anyway 1400 oso nt bad lor.. working as a purchaser cum logistics assistant at an IT firm.. tis is the co AddOn Systems Pte Ltd its 5.5 day work alt sat.. mon-fri 9-5.30 den sat 9-12.30 but wil hav to do OT but there's no OT pay as its our responsibility to finish al the work b4 leaving.. hope those stupid salesperson dun giv mi last min work.. i hate it lor.. n the gal say now i startin to learn so wil hav more OT during the beginning n when i'm familiar wif those work i can manage my time n wun hav OT lor.. if i really cant work as a purchaser hope there's other positions in the co for mi.. beta b admin de lah.. haha i prefer routine job... den the dress code she say is pants n polo tee or blouse cos i ned to paste sticker on the cargo boxes n wil ned to carry monitors or cpu ard.. ARGH!!! do i hav the strength to do it?

she say pants.. can wear jeans? cos i only got 2 pants.. hah.. cnt wear skirt ah? i got so many skirt cnt wear le ah? :( wasted.. anyway YEAH!! got $ to earn le n i gonna get the bag fr little match girl.. n mayb a pair of comfortable shoe low heels de cos mus move tins so cnt wear high heels wait fall to death ah.. haha :D

oh.. hh jus msg mi.. she's goin singtel for interview.. Hope she can get the job n al of us wil start to work le.. but the 2 guys stil haven go NS.. stil got 1 month to go.. ying mus b very sad.. ying tat time ask mi next next wk go out for shopping but duno when she wan leh.. hh oso askin when al free wana meet.. ned to ask everyone le... n i tin mayb 25 sept (sat) we oso meet lah cos jian n jh goin ns soon mah...




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10:49 AM



Thursday, August 26, 2004


2day went for 4 interviews.. 1 of dem is Sumitomo Corporation.. its a big jap co but b4 goin for the interview i din went to their website to understand more abt the business so i tin my chance of gettin tis job is low.. but i like the working environment n there got great future lor n the salary is high.. really hope can get the job as a sales administrator lor..

my last interview is at an IT firm workin as a purchaser cum logistics assistant.. i wld like to learn n gain some experience but i duno if i can cope wif it.. when the gal is explaining the job scope, i was listening n almost falling aslp wif my eyes open.. now i cant rem wat she said le.. roughly like acting as a middleman between the salesperson n the supplier n oso some inventory work.. when i was tokin to the corporate manager, i was answering her qns w/o confidence lor.. tis is my 1st interview wif dem so i din ask much.. only noe Mon-Fri 9- duno 5.30 or 5.45pm ah.. den alt sat 9-12.30pm.. den when i was on the bus home, the HR gal cal mi n ask mi to go work tml.. but i told her i got smth on so mayb start work on mon but she say dey r having some exhibition so wun hav time to train mi so aft somtime, we agreed tat sat i'l report to work.. haiz.. tml mus cal dem to ask n cfm some doubts.. wats the salary, any OT pay n benefits.. but in my heart hor.. i like no confidence leh.. n duno if i can do the job anot cos i really hate to communicate so much lor.. there's no excitement leh.. now i feel like nt working.. its so tiring.. but tinkin tat i wana buy tins n save $ i've to work lor..

jus now go bugis awhile b4 tat interview.. oh GG>5 got sales ah.. but nth nice leh.. den go up to little match girl, saw a new arrival bag... very nice n i like it very much.. $39.. but in the end i din buy.. den i went to check on my bank acct.. heng i nv buy ah cos my bank got no $ le cnt use le.. ~>.<~ but i swear to get it asap.. haha!!!

oh.. cant wait for tml le.. 24 hrs lata i'l b seeing my favourite idol - Sammi Cheng.. the pop singer.. WAH!!! :p

at 1st stil tinkin of goin to lavender to stay aft the concert.. but tat idiot guy die die oso dun let mi go.. but now even if he let mi go i oso mus tin 1st cos sat mus start work le.. but i really miss him alot.. he leh? i dun tin he wil miss mi leh cos he nv cal mi de.. everyday mus wait for mi to cal him den he'l cal back n tok awhile only.. so sad loh..


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7:59 PM



Wednesday, August 25, 2004


my 21st bday party wil b held at Changi Rise condo function room... yeah my uncle managed to book for mi le.. so its cfm to b on the 14 Nov (Sun).. tat day so Hari Raya Puasa so the following mon is public holiday oso.. no ned to work for most ppl. The room is available fr 4.30-10 pm so hav to plan c wat time to reach n wat time to cut the cake so tat it wun last too late.

so now can start searching for the best map n find out the transport available there, design my invitation card n plan my guest list.. wah alot of tins to do n plan.. some wil rcv my email invitation n some wil rcv post invitation..

hehe ask ying for some suggestions cos she celebrated hers le.. look forward to tat day.
;-)


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8:35 PM



Yeah!! wed le.. fri quick come.. my neck getting longer le.. bcos SAMMI IS HERE!!! so excited n eager to c her n her performance.. 20/3/02 was my 1st time goin to c concert n my 1st time is given to Sammi of cos.. haha it was a great nite. hope fri show is nice n i noe it wil b nice. haha..



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11:56 AM



Saturday, August 21, 2004


nt feeling well le.. throat very uncomfortable n got slight cough.. whole body feel tired wana slp..

bad bad bad mood now.. morning-evening time i was very happy cos finally can c him le.. aft so many days no meet n no tok.. only jus send 1 or 2 sms..

*thinkin* if a gal walk fast, a guy cnt chase her meh? jus c whether the guy wan anot rite?

jus now went to expo john little sales.. saw the swimming costume wana buy but he say go tampines metro c lor there oso got sales mah.. den bo bian i listen to him lor den we went tampines.. walk n c but al so exp no discount de lor.. n fr den on i very angry wif him cos he bluff mi go.. walk finish nth to go le but the time is stil early.. i dun wish to go hm yet cos i wana b wif him longer but he say he wana send mi hm den he wan go hm rest his eyes.. den i listen to him again we took 72 hm.. den on the bus he ask mi wan eat dinner anot n i say we go hougang there eat lor since tat bus is goin hougang mall there mah.. but he told mi there got nth to eat de.. piang there got so many choices n he nv been there to eat b4 he tel mi nth to eat.. like tat i got nth to say liao so i jus say dun eat lor.. n he jus agree wif mi lor.. shui bian wo.. fr den on i nv tok to him for the journey le.. b4 alighting, he ask mi where i wana alight mah.. den i say if u wana eat den wait for another stop but he say dun wan .. n ask mi go buy some food fr the coffeeshop downstair to eat.. i hate it lor.. tat coffeeshop really got nth to eat lor.. n he wan mi go waste $ to buy my dinner fr there..

but nvm we alight n i got angry wif him.. really very upset lor.. den i walk in front.. i walk wif my normal pace n aft a while i notice tat he din follow mi.. i oso dun bother to turn back n look for him le.. so i jus walk on my own.. while waiting to cross the road, i deliberately stand there longer waitin for al the cars to pass den i cross.. but i stil dun get to feel him standing beside mi lor.. n he's nv behind mi... i straight away walk to my blk n b4 i enter the lift i got turn back c if he's behind but i waited for no soul... mayb since he c mi walk so fast he oso dun bother to chase aft mi le so mite as well wait for his bus at the bus stop.. like tat he dun hav to walk so long..

so i was tinkin tis is the BEST n NICE bf i ever had n ever seen lor.. he can send u hm but u r actually walkin hm alone.. if i really walk too fast he can cal mi mah.. but he din even msg or cal mi.. i duno where he gone.. i stil scare he got accident or wat lor.. i've nv stop worryin abt him leh.. so its al my fault for walking so fast n got to walk hm alone..

now i was tinking we 2 dun seem to b bf-gf lor.. we din hold hands, din tok much.. he's always walking in front n mi behind... its more like normal frens only leh.. tis is how i tin lah n i got tel mi jus now but no reply lor.. so i wun noe wat he's tinkin..

i'm so depressed.. + got sore throat + hungry, nth to eat = duno wat feeling... ok i'm goin offline to rest.. wun b having my dinner 2nite le.. but i duno sld i go over his hse tml leh.. if i go i'l stil b alone.. but if i dun go i wun get to c him or tok to him at al lor.. how?


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8:48 PM



i'm jealous n envy vivien... y yz treat her so gd de.. n qingfa treat mi like shit lor..

wun tin of mi, wun care abt mi n even if i die of hunger oso nt his prob ah.. y so big diff de..

i was tinkin tml wake up early go his hse. dun wait for my auntie to bring mi eat breakfast le.. like tat i can spend more time wif him le.. cos jus nwo i ask him mah he wan mi go over anot.. n he say dun wan cos he 4+ wan go cc le n i 2+ den reach mite as well dun go.. den if i can wake up early i go over lor den longer time 2gether... sld i?

but jus now when i was okin to him.. he dun even wana ans mi ah.. i was like tokin to the wall lor.. ARGH!!! stupid idiot asshole guy..


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8:46 PM



Thursday, August 19, 2004


He really nv cal mi... i'm so angry now..

during lunchtime, he msg mi say he wun b calin mi 2nite cos he got dinner to go.. den i ask him wat dinner, dinner only mah now he got a hp liao cant even cal mi meh? cal mi waste $ ah... oh so now i noe tat the prepaid card is only meant for his communication wif his nabeh cc lor.. n the dinner he's goin is oso his cc de lor.. so how sld i nt get angry wif him...

aft 6 i cal him.. he say he on the way back jus off work.. den i say him mah.. i told him tat i noe he wun cal mi de n he even msg mi tel mi le.. but he shout at mi.. meaning tat he'l cal mi de lor n i say those words.. i stil wana tok to him but he jus cut my sentence n say reach hm cal mi n jus hang up my cal.. i haven finish my words lor.. nvm since he say reach hm cal mi ok i wait.. but i noe very well tat he wun cal mi de lor.. n really until now he stil haven cal.. even when i send him 3 msg sayin how i feel abt him he oso dun bother to reply or cal back..

wat sld i do now? i noe tat i sldn't hav giv him so many chance to hurt myself.. but i cldn't bring myself to leave him leh.. mouth say only but heart dun wan... mayb tis is my weakness n so he jus use tis to bcum his strength...


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10:56 PM



Wednesday, August 18, 2004


today 12+, dear msg mi ask mi hav i eaten my lunch den i reply him tat i'm shoppin for tops at future state so cheap.. but he nv reply le cos i wan him to save his msges as he's using the prepaid card now so everytin mus count lor.. den 4+ he tried to cal mi but i'm engaged on the line so din picked it up but lata i called back n he say he msg mi alr.. aiya abit waste $.. he told mi tat he wun b calling mi 2nite cos he ned to work until 10+.. den i asked him abt his training mah.. by rite 2day got de.. den he told mi tat fr tis wk onwards he wun b goin for the training le.. mayb only applicable to wed ba but sun he stil go lor..

is it bcos of mi n he changed? cos i keep naggin abt tat stupid cc.. so busy 1 lor so many prob de.. n his priority isn't mi leh.. but did he really change?

tat day told ying he went his fren hse again say wana edit fotos.. the 1st tin tat come to my mind is he wana edit his friendster foto n profile n to msg more gals... but aft checking, he din change a single tin lor.. abit unexpected lor..

really hope tat he can change his attitude to mi n his career his future lor.. n to his frens n family..

but yest he din cal mi i was so angry.. den when i msg him he den reply lor say wana go hav dinner.. at tat time i stil outside wana hav my dinner oso mah so i say when i reach hm i cal him at 10pm.. but 9.30 he cal mi n i was abt to reach hm soon i say i lata cal him.. but he argue tat he's tired n wana go slp le.. piang cant wait for a little while meh.. go out wif his fren or go their hse can lah wait for my cal wil die lah.. n he really jus say NVM dun cal liao i wan go slp le n hang up my fone.. when i reach hm the 1st tin is to cal him but his dad pick up n say he's slpin alr.. damn angry.. wake up to tok to mi awhile oso cnt.. his attitude changes everyday.. mon cal, tue dun cal, wed cal.. so tml wun cal liao lor..


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10:40 PM



Tis morning went Ngee Ann City Tower A for my interview.. i like tat job n the environment.. hope tml dey wil inform mi to start work on mon.. tolong tolong ah!!!

aft the interview went taka n wisma for shopping.. quite sometime nv been there le got new shops opening soon lor.. went wisma urban&co cos morning walk pass saw the 20% storewide sales sign mah so aft interview went to c.. fr there i bought a white sleeveless blouse, the material ok lor wun b able to c wat color u wear inside.. $23 only ok lah.. den went to c&k c shoes.. saw 2 nt bad de 1 is $39 the other $29 but nv buy.. if i really get the job i'l go n buy cos i got 1 heels de wana spoil le. den stil can use the nkf voucher got 20% off.. den walk to future state cos i saw al the items $9 den go c got any cute n nice tops.. hehe bought 3 pink color de tops.. haha den at the same time wait for my sis to meet mi there. she oso bought a black color translucent de.. den we walk down to taka.. i bought a hairclip at $8.90 quite exp leh but bo bian mus tie my hair up cos when dry the ends like died worms ah so ugly.. dun wan go cut liao mah so tie it up lor.. den we walked on the pathway outside.. fr taka back to wisma.. cos outside got those small stalls c wat dey sell lor.. den go wisma isetan mango.. my sis saw a bag nice nice.. wana buy n oso wana try some tops.. but she changed her mind cos meeting her fren at hmv for lunch.. so we walked downwards lor.. aft eating, went to the annex hav a look lor.. cos long time nv go le n last time i went dey r renovating.. had sakae sushi.. so full n yummy yummy.. got new menu le.. her fren paid everytin.. aft tat we took a cab hm.. her fren insist de.. so i mus pay mah.. the food n the cab fare i forked out $9.. haha deduct fr my sis clothes lor.. cos she owe mi mah..

really hope i can get the job... if dey ask mi go work.. it wil b temp for 2 wks fr there dey wil c my performance n got chance to convert to perm wif probation oso.. cos dey wld like to giv mi a chance to work oso n i'm seriously looking for a perm job mah.. if i can do the work dey wil recruit mi lor.. for temp 1 day wil b paid $60.. perm i stil nt sure.. it wil b a 5 day work fr 9-6pm lor.. gdgd.. i love it..

Please.. ti gong, dua pek gong, guan ying niang niang bless mi to get tat job...


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10:05 PM



Tuesday, August 17, 2004


sun told mum abt the function room thingy.. but at 1st disagree wif tis idea. she said tat if go there, she mus book a bus to send those ppl who duno how to go de there. renting a bus cos $120.. den i was very sad so stil hav to listen to her lor. den back to my room n tel my granny tat mama say mus book bus go den very mafan.. but granny say nvm lor book bus lor..

aft tat told my sis abt it den she quickly go tok to mum.. say we sld book the function room n no ned to book a bus lor. most of our relatives got their transport to reach de.. n those w/o car de can take bus or mrt mah.. quite convenient lor.. there's bus service 9, 12 n 38 fr bedok, tampines n pasir ris mah.. if nt take mrt to simei n walk or take bus go oso can.. dun worry if really gonna held there, i'l giv everyone a copy of map n how to go lor.. but my mum stil dun agree wif our suggestion.

haha den lata when my cousin came, i oso told her abt tis.. den she tok to my mum.. finally she's able to persuade her to hold at the function room. she best ah. can convince her.. haha. but when i told her tat wil b on 14/11 she say mayb she went overseas for business le.. but stil haven cfm the date lah most probably is during the long wkend lor.. so sad.. but i oso hope tat she wun b goin HK lor.. by tat time she got to carry a big stomach (pregnant le).. so dangerous...

den i ask my uncle to find out c can book anot lor.. if can everytin wil b settle le.. jus waiting for his reply.. but if he cant book den stil back to square 1 lor.. cos he've booked a bbq pit alr mah but hope the bbq pit n the function room is diff tin hope the rules wun b applicable lor. currently tinkin who sld i invite.. relatives alr settle le lah cnt change de.. but my frens leh..

i've got those closer 1s on my list le.. den my sec frens sld i cal? if i cal 1 den he's stil in gd terms wif other frens, how? cal him only or the whole grp of dem? al i noe lor..

jus went to shiwei's blog n got to noe tat she went for lingling n kelly's bday party... so gd.. mayb tis yr wil hav lots of party cum gathering lor but i only went for vivien de cos other no invite mi.. kinda sad lah but for my party sld i invite dem?

ok wait for my uncle reply den decide le.. if can invite more ppl den its oso a gathering for us lor.. *pray*


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10:29 AM



Monday, August 16, 2004


2day went for 2 interviews, 1 is a recruitment agency. piang tat agency hor mus giv dem $50+ fee. one time only lah... den i cnt go work for any co w/o their knowledge lor. n if i break my bond i've to pay 80% lor. but if dun go thru agency like lesser chance of getin a job lor. den i fr raffles place mrt there walk down to tanjong pagar mrt lookin for the other co bldg. walked pass it din even notice lor.. haiz.. tired leh.. den dey wan mi to do admin, acct n web developing lor.. 1st 3 mth $1300 upon confirmation wil increase to $1400. but heard le hor i can c tat i'm doin more IT den admin lor. den is the pay reasonable?

2day tat idiot sms mi during his lunchtime. askin mi 2day goin over anot.. i noe tat he's hoping i wun go lor so i say ' if u wan mi to go den i go lor if nt i dun go ' n he really reply say tis sat den go over lor.. but i ans him tat he's trying to avoid mi lor try nt to c mi. den when sat coming he'l tel mi he's busy n i dun hav to go over lor. when my interview end i cal him to cfm tat he really dun wan mi to go over ah.. n he of cos say dun wan lor. den i ask him to cal mi when he reach hm.

when he reach hm he did cal mi.. jus now i cal his hse he's at hm.. so guai ah.. 2day diff attitude again lor. really duno wat he's tinkin.

wan his ans but so long le he stil say DUNO.. everytime oso the same ans lor. den i told him nvm.. i can c fr ur actions to get ur ans.


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9:04 PM



Sunday, August 15, 2004


ying ying.. he lied to mi again.. last nite i told u tat those emails n msg i send him he say he din c rite.. but now i ask his fren he say is tat idiot read de n delete it. y mus lie to mi leh? y mus i waste my time sending him msg n he jus dun appreciate it lor.. jus read n delete..

i'm really very dissapointed n upset wif him lor...


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6:07 PM



i've went over to take my tins back le.. but i forgot to return the keys.

i told his sis tat i'l go over 2day to giv him the sim card. but as he doesn't wana accompany mi go c fireworks bcos he's busy wif his training he's nt intending to meet mi. n when i ask him abt the sim card, he say he'l go buy another 1 cos he wun noe when he can take fr mi. meaning tat he is very busy everyday tat he got no time to spend wif mi den no meet liao lor.

yah mon-fri busy working n wkend busy for his troupe tin. i hav tolerate him for so many yrs le but now he's gettin overboard lor. i've notice tat he's been trying to get to noe many gals in friendster n i've warned him to stop it cos i cant let him do such tins behind my back. but he ignore my words n stil continue doin it. i alr buay tahan him le smmore now when tokin to mi, the tone is different. he like bui song wana hang up the fone quickly. aft tinkin thru jus now i msg his fren to help mi pass msg to him. i said "we r finished n u can go flirt until u die". if he heard tis n if he stil love n care for mi he sure wil cal mi rite? but NO. nt even a msg lor. aft tat i msg his sis telling her no ned to find him for a tok n demand an ans fr him le cos i end tis relation le n he oso nv disagree lor.

i msg ying n his sis.. but no one reply mi. m i giving trouble to dem? m i very troublesome? but i dun wan tis to happen oso mah. if i keep everytin to myself i can go crazy.. n i duno y whenever i tin abt tis matter, my tears jus dropped lor. i cant control. his sttitude is totally diff.. who changed him?

n jus now i oso msg his fren ask him to stop letting tat asshole to go his hse n use the pc le.. like tat he wil nt get to touch the friendster..

~>.<~


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5:53 PM



last nite i was so happy cos finally sat can meet my bb le.. we parted since national day 3pm. i miss him but he doesn't miss mi at al. he can even forgot to cal mi. make mi so worried abt him. asshole lor. i very unhappy wif him tis few wks. but if i dun say out to smone i'l burst out lor.. so ying noes the best le n vivien oso. but other den consoling mi n oso feel angry wif him there's nth we can do. cos we really duno wat he wan. smtimes can treat mi real gd but smtimes he can throw mi aside. but now i jus hope he can giv mi his final decision so tat we wun b waasting our time if we r nt fated to b 2gether.

ok forget abt those unhapiness...

2day went to my uncle's new condo at Changi Rise.. at simei.. found out tat his condo is directly behind my old-uncle condo. haha so qiao. den walk round lookin at the environment. OH.. damn nice ah.. everywhere got water flowing den i believe the night scene is even nicer. walk up to the bbq pit its bside the adult swimming pool.. he hav booked it for my ah-ma's bday on 21/11 le. walkin along the pool i feel like goin down for a swim.. there's a jacuzzi pool oso.. shiok ah!! but i duno how to swim n i dun hav a swimming costume n i scare to wear oso cos i got a big belly.. haha.. so ugly lor.. den walk over to the kids pool.. OMG!! tat 1 is wat i like best le.. the floor of the pool is covered by sand n there's some slides n some kind of playground games in the center of the pool lor.. i wana play tat.. n i mite jus go n buy a swimming costume jus for tat lor.. den walk up there's another 2 bbq pit nearer to the toilet oso but duno y my uncle nv book there. den walk up the clubhouse to the gym.. its facing the pool.. nice view.. aft tat go up to his apartment.. wah nice design lor.. but quite small ah.. i ike his hse design.. simple n nice. den chit chat n my auntie suggest mi to book the function room for my bday party lah.. b4 leaving we went to the function room to hav a look.. nt bad lor oso pool view n outside got quite some chairs n tables outside the balcony n the clubhouse. there's 2 function rooms n can b combined de. but go ask le 1 unit can only book 1.. n hav to deposit $200 lor.. its alrtie lor cos can take back full amt mah.. den i was tinkin abo ask my uncle c if his neighbour wil b bookin the function room on nov anot if nt ask dem to help mi book lor.. haha.. like tat it sure can take up to 160 ppl. jus cal buffet lor den aft tat no ned to do so many cleaning..

jus told my granny n my sis.. dey oso ask mi to go book lor.. save trouble at hm mah.. cos if i invite at hm i ned to hav 2 sessions, 1 for my frens the other for relatives den ned 2 buffet n 2 cakes le lor.. so if got the function room it wil make tins easier.. n can jus attached a map to my invitation card lor.. haha.. tml den tel my mum abt it c how she say.. sure wil agree to it oso de cos we wun b losing tat $200 mah..

jus wondering if i'l hav a hse of my own in future anot? i wish to hav 1 lor.. can er ren shi jie den smmore i can design the way i like.. but wil my wish come true? oh yah the next time i go his hse den i try to take some photos.. so nice..


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12:44 AM



Thursday, August 12, 2004


Darling found himself a job le.. finally ah.. thou its a temp job but got got to convert to perm lor if he's willing to work hard. Mon-Fri 9-6, alt Sat 9-1. $6/hr. nt bad lah.. like tat he 1 mth earn abit more den ying cos she only work 5 days. haha.. but he stil cant start saving $ now lor cos he got alot of debts to clear. i'm worry abt tis lor. but al i can do now is to hope he can really change his attitude. As a gal, how can i let my bf to flirt n get to noe other gals rite? i not so generous to share my bf wif other gals. but i oso dun understand y some gals despite noeing tat guy got a gf le stil wana get to noe him leh? r dey consider bitches? like to b third-party? i can only tin of al tis qns myself cos dere's no pt askin tat idiot cos he wil only deny or argue back at mi lor.

2day whole day at hm.. duno y i'm so tired n slp until 11.30am den wake up.. i din stress myself leh but y i stil so slpy n lazy to get off the bed? haiz.. piggy liam ah. c newspaper for job n went online searching oso but only got a few lah.. den decided to reformat my pc cos got some virus like the spyware or smth like tat ah.. duno lah jus reformat lor.. b4 tat i've alr moved most of my tins to my bro pc le so can save some time. tis is my 2nd time reformating n i'm quite stupid lah. at 1st i've finish reformating le n i'm so contented cos i nv trouble jiahao mah but who noes i did smth wrong.. the documents n settings, program files wich sld b under c:\ de al goes under d:\ n i'm nt used to it cos d:\ took lesser space in the harddisk. den i redo everytin again lor.. tis time oso do wrongly ah.. i wana hav 2 local disk drive.. n i got c:\ n e:\ as my local disk while d:\ bcum my cd drive. not quite complicated lor keep selecting the wrong drive. haha.. but leave it liao lah so long as can use can le. if redo mayb worse tins mite happen lor. haha. but i found out tat i got 2 OS in my pc n i've to choose 1 when startup. but tis prob, my cousin jus help mi to solve it le. he so smart sld hav ask him to come help mi reformat liao lah save trouble... haha. den jus now install al the programs tat i wil b using frequently. now al ready n can b use le.. oh yah tml mus online n ask jh to send mi the office xp cos the cd my sis took to cck le wkend den back but i ned to use MS Word.


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12:47 AM



Wednesday, August 11, 2004


I love these sentences.. Deardear, can u understand how i feel?

Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.

It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel.

A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. If he/she isn't worth it now he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now. Let go...


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1:10 PM



**Tue 10 Aug 2004**

2day i'm suppose to hav an interview at Toshiba Data Dynamic but i called to cancel it.. reason: too far in le, very wulu, no transport there lor gotta walk fr potong pasir/macpherson area leh.. its far behind the siemens lor. stupid agent say very near only.. heng i no go ah.. but last min got interview to go oso. haha..

2day is my 1st time to ride on the bike. i'm scared of sitting on the bike cos very dangerous lah.. but 2day i had overcome my fear le. but stil i dun wish to sit anymore.. stil prefer sitting in a car. haha.. if die die mus sit bike den the driver mus drive very slow.. 30-40kmph.. haha.. 2day gotta help my aunt to buy the season parking coupon at sengkang lah den go hougang help my mama pay bill n deposit cash. to save time n transport fee, my cousin offer to drive mi there as he's free. haha he same as mi looking for job now.. he jus resigned cos tat job requires him to fly every wk n its very tiring no time wif family lor.. den when i had to go for my interview at kaki bukit, he oso offer to drive mi there cos he's passing by to tampines mah. haha dun dare to sit but sit for so many times in a day le.. heng his bike behind got the box tin ah to support mi.. haha quite cooling n exciting but i'm abit scare.

**Mon 09 Aug 2004**

2day is National Day.. no tix to go c parade :(
Planned to wake up at 7am n get ready to go IMM c ENERGY but was too tired le cant pull myself up. tat idiot oso say dun go le cos nt enuf slp.. n we 2 slpt until 11.30 den wake up. morning my mood was stil alrite but lata on got worse le..
tis idiot wake mi up say wana go buy lunch for mi le.. so i pull myself up fr the bed.. he bath le went to army market meet his fren for lunch n left mi waiting his my lunch for an hr +.. gastric pain wana faint le he stil haven come back...
n tis idiot i really very angry wif him ah.. al he care abt is jbcc lor.. 2+ went out say go sim lim wif johnny to buy lights, he stepped out of the door he told his dad tat he wun b hm so early n ask mi to wait for him at hm.. IDIOT he's gonna leave mi alone for hrs lor.. i nt so stupid.. i went to bath n leave for my granny hse. actually i packed al my tins n wana leave 4eva but too much tins to take le n since i'm nt goin hm directly, i put everytin back to the cupboard. unsuccessful moving :( duno y tat day suddenly got running nose.. feel so terrible. went my granny hse tot dey goin out to c fireworks but no idea where to go.. if go kallang sure kena jam there lor. so tried goin to the other blk 25th floor to c but it was blocked, went back to my granny flat only can c the color changing but no fireworks pattern. haiz watch tv beta. den waited for my uncle to drive us out for dinner.. went changi V eat nasi lemak den go loyang tou pek gong bai bai saw Meizhu there. so qiao... aft tat send my granny hm den i go hm loh.. very tired tat i almost fall aslp in the car. alr slp until so late liao stil feeling so slpy.. really a pig ah.

**Sun 08 Aug 2004**

2day my lao-yi is stayin over at my hse so b4 tat i quickly tel mama tat i goin lavender to stay den next day go IMM easily. ask mi y go IMM.. told her c ENERGY she "huh" den forget it cos she wun understand de.. haha. as usual morning auntie cal mi wake up n go for breakfast. early afternoon, my sis say she wana go cut her hair ask mi help to check Hebe's latest hairstyle. den i oso go cut my lor.. went to her fren's salon at bedok.. i cut $18 only i tin nt bad lah but bcos i got perm b4 the bottom part abit curl lor.. but now i tin the length is stil quite long leh bo bian le lor.. aft tat went hawker eat le den go hm. reach hm 5pm le den we go bath n went down to esplanade to meet my bro n his gf. dey 2 went out shopping n book a nice view for us to c the fireworks. tis is the 2nd time i went le.. the 1st fireworks is designed by the UK team n its worth waiting.. very very nice lor.. too bad no take photo. we planned to go next sun for the last fireworks display n i ask m bro to go there early to book tat place again cos the view very gd lor.. directly infront lor.. mayb ask dem go early to hav a picnic.. haha :D aft the show, we walk to bugis to had our dinner at MOS burger. mus walk there lah if nt marina, suntec n raffles alot of ppl de lor. aft tat went bugis V wif my bro n his gf walk 1 rnd nth much cos alot closed le den went to the busstop to take bus back. saw bus 80 den we run there cos stil red light mah can alight.. but tat asshole driver.. i wana complain abt him ah.. damn angry lor.. its red light n the bus cant move mah, smmore the bus is stil in the busstop lor.. n we knock on the door askin him to open leh but he die die oso dun wan keep pointing at the traffic light den when it turns green he jus drove off.. damn angry ah.. wana go complain SBS abt him le. den we gotta wait for another 80 to come lor. i took the same bus wif dem but i alight earlier cos i go lavender to stay.. haha so excited.. but tat idiot isn't at hm lor.. he got training den meeting den duno do wat shit there 10+ den went for dinner reach hm almost 12 loh.. slp at 1+, switch on the alarm wana wake up at 7am to prepare myself to go c ENERGY...


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12:11 AM



Friday, August 06, 2004


Wah.. long long time no blog liao.. for the past 1 mth, every wk go to my granny hse 3 or 4 times lor den went for some interviews but its either long journey or the workplace sucks... tats y until now stil jobless.

yesterday is my graduation day.. YEAH!!! waited for 3 yrs le finally graduated wif a dip cert. but i miss sch life :( in sch stil can meet up wif my frens but now some working, some in NS/police, one in NTU seldom got the chance to meet up le. really miss those days when we r gossiping, hanging out together.

at 1st i dun wana go for the ceremony de cos i'm afraid to go on stage but my frens persuade mi to go.. say al r goin so i register for it n its oso a time for us to meet up lor. but stil got doreen n huihui r busy so unable to turn up. deen n ting went, i saw dem but wasn't able to catch hold of dem for photo taking. :(

Me, meifen, ying, jian n jiahao meet for lunch at FJ. Jap P4 chicken.. miss it but abit too salty le nt nice. den 5 of us took photos lor n aft the ceremony we went to suntec Kuali for dinner. seems nice lah but actually most of the food doesn't taste gd. but i love the cakes, so delicious yummy yummy. den at suntec oso took some photos wif huiping.

ok shall end here.. pray hard quickly find a job if nt hav to b beggar le.. jus now oso discussing wif mama abt my 21 bday party.. stress ah.. got so many ppl to invite. dun invite oso cnt mah.. whole life only got 1 21 yrs old leh..

heres the photos taken:
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11:35 AM