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a b o u t . m e

Named Gilliam Ang
Born in 16 Nov 1983.
Regional Sales Coordinator in Epson.
Student of SIM - RMIT University.
Hope my wishes will come true soon.

w a n t e d

* A caring, loving HIM
* Save lots of $$$
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* Get married on 09/09/09 or 20/09/2009, possible?
* w@ns to |ivE h@pPi|y eVer aFteR
* Coach Sling bag
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* Ipod Nano
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Saturday, August 06, 2005


Sorry to say tat my sad feeling came back last nite..

I'm so confused. My mind noes i sld giv up & forget him liao but y my actions not tally wif my tinkin?
Told 3 person abt my feeling at tat time, al i hear fr dem r almost the same lah..

jus watched 'TV Shou Cha Xian' on CH U. tis episode is a gal (named A) checking on her bf & find out tat her bf is oso wif her best fren (named B). & shortly both found out tat he's wif B's sister. & the ending is tat, tat guy is having another gal other den dey 3. 4-timing at 1 time.. Y guys can do such tin? & when his plot is exposed, all the gals left him & even give him a slap. & he pleaded to A, say he's playing only but he love her truly.
When i saw tis show, i was so concern abt it, cos its so similar to me..

Heard their conclusion, very true lor so decided to write here.

Once there's a gal crying by the river side. Den a old man came & asked her wat happen. She ans tat she 'shi lian' le. But the old man luf. The gal scold back tat she's ditched & yet he stil can luf..
But the old man told her this...
You've lose someone who dun love u.
But he've lose someone who love him & lose the ability to love.
Then the gal thanx the old man & stand up on her own.

If u hav used 10 mins to do smth wrong, will u stil spend 20 mins to do the same error?
If u waste 1 yrs wif him, will u stil spend the rest of ur time feeling sad?

The above r true words lah.. i sld listen & stand up again. but 4yrs r/s very hard to forget leh. how long does i need to forget?

Words fr my fren:

I can sure find smone much beta den him. Sld close tis chapter happily & start afresh.
I've to tin al the tins he done to mi b4. Is he worth my tears? Do i wana suffer in silence? Its so unfair to mi, y i love him so much yet he is nt giving as much love back to mi?
I've to pull through tus hardest period now. Hav to slowly move out fr the circle of empty promises, lies & quarrels. Else i'll b hurt over & over again.
I can do it, hav confidence in myself, love myself more, pamper myself.
Nt to suffer in silence, cos he wun noe. & even if he noe, he wun appreciate.

I've decided nt to contact or noe anytin abt him for tis period 1st.. cos i noe my heart stil nt stable wif my mind. pls let mi quickly forget abt everytin.

or is there anyone who i can trust now? let mi shift al my attention to someone new ba. cos i cant depend on my frens al the time. dey hav their own life & i dun wish to affect dem. i felt so irritating lor. y abit of tins wana go disturb others. frens r al busy, & when i dun wish to stay at hm wat can i do? i cant alway b light bulb shining on my bro & his gf mah.

i can say i really duno wat to do liao. i'm lost. lost in the forest waiting for ppl to rescue. hoping tat person is him but tis can nv b true. cos he's happily wif her le.. i dun wish to c dem 2gether. y he choose someone wif tat look? his fren say he's blind but wil he care abt other ppl's comments?

i really wish i'm ok. go ahead scold mi ba, i'm numb le.


HuRt Is PaRt Of BeInG iN LoVe.. AnD LoVe Is PaRt Of BeInG aLiVe..

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